I noticed that

Someone I never met got so angry at a perceived blog about me that he commented. And someone that I was under the impression loved me never once took my side or stood up for me.

I'm on the edge of wanting to decide never to love again, or find a strong, dignified man who backs me up. (I'm still explicitly and mutually marrying for money)

I do not believe in rotten people, most "wrong" things are unacceptably right.  I believe hypocrisy to not be a disease but to be in every situation. Every thought anyone has is contradictory. It sounds really fucked up but then why has everyone been a hypocrite once? Is this crime wrong? No. Respect to those who try an avoid it, more to those who are just honest and accept it.

I hold education, superficiality, reality, truth, and ambitiousness close to me. I hold onto science. I admit things. I blurt things. I make me look like an asshole, and I like it.  I like other assholes. It happens.

I believe people when they say that I should never begin censoring myself. Only one person has advised that and I took it to heart.