I want to experience as much as I can

When you're young, everything wrong feels like the end of the world. This is stressful and in a way motivating. I'm constantly planning my entire life. I don't give if it changes, I just want to steer in the right direction.

I want to take as many opportunities as I can.
Try out anything and see what fits.
Sure, I know who I am. Do I? What if I contradict myself? What do I want to do with my life?

What kind of people do I like being around? Who do I want to date?

Even though I feel over worked, I'm still the happiest I've been in a long, long time. I just wrote a decent paragraph on a subject I knew nothing NOTHING about. I just failed my whore 1 solo. I wrote a report on a subject I know about but its a shitty report. I haven't worn my new victorias secret. This is all stressfulll!

Back to subject, I want to experience what I can now. I'll hold this value my entire life.

I want to see Rocky Horror in Milwaukee, drink coffee by the big lake, drive at one am. go to taco bell with a huge chorale group to bash boyfriends and bimbos. I wanna like my outfits, spend my money, read good literature. I wanna try and write a poem. I wanna go to LilEmily's party and see the old friends.

By the way thats my weekend coming up ^

Today I told a freshman do not smoke, you will regret it. His sister was in rehab for heroin last month. You can tell he's popular. Good at music, lots of friends... looks like Justin Bieber. Beiber? Beeeeber??????? Every time my voice is hoarse in choir I feel guilty. But I felt like I only said that because my friends were encouraging him not to and I want Lauren to not think Ima crazy. But I feel really good that we tried influencing him. His homelife may be leading him in one direction, but my freshman year I thought the seniors were sooo big and cool I'd do anything for them. Only the seniors that year in choir were stoners. Go figure.
I am not a smoker at all.

I've been discoursing with a few people since my termination of relationship: tyler and emily. It makes me really happy just to open up to other people and learn my likes and dislikes through what I like about others. My friends are setting me up with some guy because he has red hair like me. Well, he doesn't know yet, but they told me. Finally a fun sweethearts date. If it goes well, prom? Delishhhh! I've only been to prom with tyler. The pro: prom sophomore year. the con: tyler. ***See picture at top (15 years old Sophomore prom)