Why would you make a resolution? My answer: Well folks, they DO motivate us if not for a little while. Something is better than nothing when it comes to SUPERFLUOUS improvements. (Some improvements are necessary and therefore do not have to do with previous statement.)
This is a caffeine induced ramble, but maybe it will invoke a conversation. I digress.
My resolutions are as follows: Meet Andrew. Do not fall for anybody (maybe a little just nothing like what you just freed yaself from.) Stop eating just so you get grandma's chex mix before dad (in other words let's diet.)
Doable, right? Andrew is easy. (lol) Well I mean in terms of being able to drive down by him without asking my parents Let's not forget I move out in six months. I can just deny feelings or just remind myself of the hell hole SOMEONE was. And the chex mix is already gone and I've been eating smaller portions.
I woke up cuddling someone. Its a big deal to me because it woke up the fact I am more lonely than I thought. For the purpose of my life lonely is defined as a realized lack of physical relations with another man. I have companions and I have fulfilling love. I'm missing the joys of having a fuck buddy. There ya have it folks! Lord, I don't know who reads this.. maybe I must censor.
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ReplyDeleteWhy do you seem to be complaining that you cant message me? You shouldnt be able to just message me anywhere. haha, funny that some crackhead relative can find me faster than you.
ReplyDeleteWell it looks like people insult you for the same things, maybe you need some change trailer trash. maybe you shouldnt be hating on sooo many other people and loving your life more.
Whoever you were talking to though, standards are good. We cant just go meeting people from wow and moving in with them. Look at Colby, poor guys living with a bipolar cat woman.
Thanks for the love but its Saturday night.
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ReplyDeleteIn what was, and i quote you, did you "try making piece" and did you mean peace?
ReplyDeletebc maybe you did but i missed that memo.
my unrealated cousin is bipolar and i see that as a harsh word to use as an insult and very unadult. he sometimes just cannot control her emotions and i love that woman anyway. i didn't send andrew, i mentioned it and he likes to troll. he is someone cool in my life but he's different from andy that i talk about, in case you are confused.
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ReplyDeleteOk, ok. I accept that as an apology.
ReplyDeleteI just think you and I are really, really different in a way I'm not willing to cope with. I love diversity but I have a few values.
That was you on Tyler's phone, "he said she said" and thats what I heard from your Tyler. I give him credibility since he was there. Tell "Colby" I'm glad he liked my nudes.
... What happened with Tyler and I is as much your business as you want it to be, idc and idk what happened in the end of that relationship anymore really. I must have really been a stupid girl at one time in my life. He's your friend.
And lastly, Tyler is not even my business. I hope I never ever come in contact with anyone remotely like him ever again. I hope you do not feel the same way when you invite him into your home, but then again I'd live with anyone if it brought rent down.
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ReplyDeletei don't think he loved me,
ReplyDeletei don't think i loved him
until i shouldn't have.
i don't think tyler stood up for me,
i think he didn't want to feel judged by his peers.
there were times i was harassed by stoners in the hallways and he laughed.
I'm replying in hopes of escaping college course papers.
if he still or ever loved me, things would be different i know love isn't an emotion here.
i don't hate him because he 'hurt' me,
i hate him because i spent time with him and was blind to even obvious realities.
i hate him because he is happy with mediocrity. mediocrity sickens me. i repeat, it sickens me.
i wish he wouldn't think about me. until winter break i hadn't thought of him. but my grandma noticed the sparkle in my eye is back where it belongs
and said something. then my mom wanted her dvds back.
you end with 'letting me be' each time, and i don't care if you read or reply anyways so save the typing.
i like how tyler just stood up for you by texting me. JOY, that he stands up for someone. fuckin loserrrr.
senior year: i realized i spent more times with my legs open in tylers room than spending time with people who will make something of themselves. at least im going to college with a few of the people i met this year, so its like a second chance.
i like the lack of existence of tyler's alleged woman. my pics are on fb and no where else because i dont wanna look taken... its cramps the single girl styyyle. like tyler's ex girlfriend kaity once said, "Tyler, he's like a used Taurus. I've moved on to brand new Ferarris."