Visions and Glimpses

Musical is taking over my life, and it's causing too much of a good thing.  I hope that lessens.  In face, when musical is over.. wow.  I will have all this time to just do stuff.  Study.

I am now listening to Michelle Obama's interview with Mike Huckabee.  I love this woman.  An interesting point made was that her family is facing criticism in this heated political time by bloggers who are "cowardly"





I forgot my point after I attempted embedding that video.  I just want to say I love Michelle but her husband and I have beef.  I'm kinda mad that LeClair is back in Afghanistan and that there are going to be more troops sent to Iraq very soon.  In some ways, this is a war of attrition.  Moreover, my anger comes from the State of the Union speech-- I am angry Obama proclaimed he was going to pull troops out.  What is the point of saying something like that?  You cant address what you might do and make it sound solid.  You cannot  say something hopeful just to fill space.

It's all just filling space.  Who knows what is going on?  Since we must do what is necessary instead of keeping our word, then dont make a promise to start.  Maybe I'll make that a life lesson for myself.

I just want everything to be all right.  For me, for my friends, and on a global scale.

I debated joining the military, but I just don't have good instinct or common sense.  Yes, they teach you everything you need to know out there in the world of military duty, but Darwinism would knock me out in a heartbeat.  I decided to live vicariously through my soldier friend LeClair, he let me choose for him to go to Japan.  And I'll just make sure I travel a lot to make up for what  I missed in that part of the job.

I mentioned my roomate pressuring religion once, and she has now recently more than once brought up the fact that I do not want children.

I know very well that I may grow up and some experience I have may change me to want a child, but I am not going to want a child just because my roomate says it's just the natural order of things. The natural order of things is very nice, but who am I to confine myself to that. I cant even do my own laundry yet and I dread children. Maybe it is because I still have fun acting like a child that makes me not want one. That may be so but I can name handfuls of parents that I would be much better than. My spawn would be fucking smart. But who the fuck cares? I'm still a teenager. I just like planning my life, just so I can make good decisions and feel secure. I have back up plans and wiggle room. I love Lauren very much, but how much of this will I  have to put up with?