HYPOTHETICALLY

   Mr Wanner, bless his heart, was feeling ill all day. It must have gotten serious bc we are encouraged to come to chamber sick, but Wanner was too sick to have chamber choir tonight (typically from 6/6:30-8:10) In my grounded state I knew it would be an ass-kissing effort to ask to go to the chamber impromptu picnic soooo.... I just didn't tell my parents chamber was canceled. Chamber is every single Monday so I wasn't even losing any typical time. I'm getting the feeling Angie is avoiding me, but I digress. She hadn't texted me about dinner tonight so I said we should pick up a meal Thursday and catch up. (It's really bothering me her space lately, but one could argue I began the space) I didn't want home food or picnic snacks... I wanted pizza. I also knew last week Monday Gian wanted to meet up... So it just worked for me to ask him to Edwardo's. It's my favorite pizza place so far, but I don't get out much. It's a straight shot down hwy 100 for me, kinda far but prob an equal drive for both of us. I wish I could go downtown, but that intimidates me. I'm not the best driver.
  It's so nice to talk to someone who likes (I assume) what I have to say. I'm just completing a major milestone in social development of finding my identity, so it's great to know someone to talk to who isn't caught up in high school drama. I'm fine with all of my maybe like 2 closest friends' drama, but it's everyone ELSES that just is too much for me. (Lunch today: Alex vs Krista and Lauren speculating the relationship between Mer and all of them and some who were not there; both parties were right and should just shut up) I wana get to real stuff. Or just stuff like The Clash and cartoons, pot, college, scandal, poodle/bulldog mixed people.. haha. Anything but "he said she said"
  Plus I had Canadian bacon for like the 1st time in 6y! I've been missing NYC lately, which is weird because I spent 4 days there in my life total. Like, a year ago too. I wonder if I could last in a city.. Maybe after college I'll try but it's super expensive. I like when people talk about meeting nice people on a bus.

I think I have nothing interesting to say to Angie so she doesn't want to hang out with me? Last year we cycled through being close and not so it's not a big deal I just hope she doesn't hate me. We're both stressed I guess.

And nothing separates you from people like parents. Nothing.

After pizza I raced to Manchester Park by the apts and the Library. It was fucking freezing (My fault for not bringing a coat) but I'm tough so I stayed. Logan, Alyssa, Connor, and Josh were also there as well as the chamber kiddos. I love those kids, all of 'em. I wish I showed it more but I'm bad at that! Maybe some of them will realize it wasn't cold for me bc I had great company. I know I just spat shit about high school but I'm just as bad as any other kid ages 14-18. I hope more picnics happen in the future.