Higher

I am super pumped for college at Eau Claire after Orientation today!

We stayed at the lovely Plaza. I was worried bc I hadn't seen the downtown of ec and all i had seen were big ass stores and a starbucks. LUCKILY there is a tea house AND a coffee house both with frequent live music and poetry slams and such.

I got put in the wrong orientation group: the Undecideds. It confused me and made me think that I wouldn't get into the closed classes and I thought I got in a less good choir. It was very stressful and my Adviser at the time didn't seem to make an effort to fix the problem. A music professor was notified of my displacement and fixed my enrolling account and got all my music info sorted (I am now a voice major) I also got into Women's Chorale!

One of the best things about the day was that during my voice placement audition, Dr. S. began by reading me an email. This is really close to word for word: "Emily is a fantastic soprano. She sang the solo in the Dello Joio for the WCDA Convention in 2009. Emily is also a wonderful human being."
From that point I felt confident and like I was really meant to do this.

Another great feature of the day was the attention my hometown got. Dr. R, the helpful music professor noted how his student teaching experience there was the best experience of his life. He student taught under the former choir director who retired nearly over 10 years ago, Mr. Jacobi. Mr. Jacobi is a very joyful and thoughtful man, the professor and I shared a warm distinction of him. Dr. S who heard my audition was the director of Mr. Wanner, my high school choral director. Mr. Wanner loves talking about his college choir experience, and as his name gains attention in the choir world, Dr. S. knows him and is very proud. They are still friends. As I was exiting the student union, a professor held the door open for my family and I, read our name tags that revealed our home, and asked us where in Muskego we lived. Although we described the area, he didnt seem to know which is to be expected since our part is forgotten by your average Muskego resident. Shortly after, he mentioned he grew up on the first road in our subdivision off the main Muskego roadway, Janesville. What a small world.

I was really happy my bag got compliments

Lauren and I plan on doing bunk beds in our dorm. I have a moon chair, but a futon will fit too.

College will be so fun. I saw a lot of organizations I'd love to learn more about such as West African Music, Feminists, and Habitat for Humanities.

want. ii

maybe it's a little immature of me but I'm hating curfew. I really wana sleep over at Gian's.

want.

every    day
we're         changing

Already this summer is the best ever. I'm so in love and so are my friends. I've been keeping pretty busy with my social life mostly spending time with my man. Fathers Day was very sunny and nice although my own dad was under the weather.

One of the most important things to me is adventure. Even doing something ordinary can be an adventure if you do it with someone else. Like when I tag along with Gian to run errands it is an adventure because having someone else along makes it fun. I always get something different at the grocery store. I think I'll have to keep it cheap next time because on Monday we got Ben & Jerry's. Turned out there were tornadoes so we lit candles in the kitchen which has a sort of green house and watched the thunder with our pint of Phish Food. Deeeelish.

I was never looking for love or even a relationship, but I'm not one to not let things flow. I wasn't flowing that direction but since someone else was being cool enough for me to want to go that way I didn't resist. I'm so glad I let myself fall for Gian. I've remained independent for the most part but managed to let him close. I love his taste for the arts and I love everything he says. I love what annoys him about me. I love his laugh! It's so funny (: I love when he is tipsy and gets all mushy. I'm still all melted, as you can read, from some cute gushy talk from last night. I'm just on such a high note with this whole thing. I'm kind of a roller coaster all the time with how I feel about romantic objects so I'm lovin' this.

I just hate thinking about the future. College and all that. I'm super excited. It's going to be the bomb .com and all. Even though I can't make promises (I'm young and still probably fickle) I daydream us settling. It's what everyone does in love, but I'm dating a guy who is just reaching the age of acceptable settling. I think the social "norm" for settling is 25-31 and he'll be 25 this year (although I admit my brain says "sure i guess 25 but no limit and I try not to judge early bloomers")

Today I watched Kyle skate for about an hour. He stood up for me to this stoner ungraduated douche (he was supposed to grad this year, ew) and we talked about relationships and drama and shit. I lovee dudes in love. They're cool. I love hearing a dude talk about his girl, bc it's like anyone can act like they like a girl to their face but when they're gone it's different.

I've listened to Home By Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros forever.

home is wherever im with you.

Well, my greedy little brains are on fire.

King Tut's golden sandals, circa 1324 BC, on exhibit at the Denver Art Museum. © Sandro Vannini

where from

Running on Empty

That chapter is ending Sunday. It will be a milestone.
I remembered today that Nick didn't graduate high school. Nick LeClaire. I didn't know him well and I can't even picture his face all too clearly.

Well, I don't know how to feel because accomplishment is what I feel but really, I could've done it blind and deaf. What did I accomplish in high school? Nothing too far above all the stoners and dumbasses I walked the halls with. Then again I'm in the lower of the top 25% but I still got awarded and shit.

I'm so happy I can move forward. High school was fun but not good enough for me.

YOU JUST LIKE REMINDING YOURSELF WHAT A BIG FUCKING DEAL YOU WERE. WELL SURE YOU WERE. BUT WHY ARENT YOU MAN ENOUGH TO GET OVER IT? CALLED ME A HYPOCRITE.

My Birthday

Is Friday.
My 18th.

(looks at title) is it ironic this whole page seems to be about Gian and my banner is so self orietned? (thinks) No, because if I didn't love myself, no one else could. And that is what matters: I can let another close.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Love.
Pizza at the ever-so-hipster Classic Slice
was lovely, delicious
kiss
sat in house
at the table like a real couple that lives
together.

sat in the nice weather back yard
you with guitar
me with Sonja, a bass guitar.
peak peace moments of my life,
time soo slow and good
I'm not good at the instrument but it still makes me happy to play with you

7 layer taco salad

order of ingredients from bottom to top:

1. refried beans
2. sour cream mixed with taco spice (the meat seasoning stuff) mix it in the sour cream container 1st
3. shredded cheese (we used cheddar and against my judgment it was good)
4. guacamole
5. chopped tomatoes, black olives, and chopped green onions

It was way more delicious than that really popular taco dip with cream cheese, if you've ever had that. If that's like a 6/10 this is a 10.

My favorite chips are Mission chips because they're sooo cheap and taste more home made

I'm scared

Do not make someone your anchor. Sharing love with someone should be auxiliary. It's completely unhealthy to make someone the reason you get up in the morning, unless they are your offspring.
Sharing love with another should just be the icing on the cake, and if you honestly don't have cake you need to remember your art, your past, your family, and your other random uh, er, 'blessings' I guess.

I just can't be anyone's anchor
Because I can't stay.
It's putting too much responsibility on me that I can't handle, no one should have to handle being someone's anchor.

I will always be there for the people I care about. I always want to help people, but saying that was really unhealthy. Someday, I am moving far away. What then? You gonna off yourself? Is that your answer? Or how about when I am gone spreading your happiness to other people, show your friends how much you care for them. Better yourself, make art, do something.

I am leaving you. Not emotionally, but Eau Claire is in August. What then? Be smart. I'm not a good anchor. I am going to make you very happy while I'm here but I'm not the only thing or person capable of that.

From what I know about myself (which isn't necessarily true)

Ok, you read the title, riiight?

I feel like I am both always happy and very pessimistic.
If you know me, give me your opinion. I value it.
If you don't know me, perhaps tell me if you think it's possible.




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Double Fudge Fluffy Frosted Flower Cake

Double Fudge Cake, enough for 2  9" pans

• 2c flour
• 1tsp baking soda
• dash of salt
• 3/4 c butter (and it says 'or lard' lol)
• 1 1/3 c sugar
• 2 eggs
• 1 tsp vanilla
• 1 1/4 c scalded whole milk
• 1 sm package choc chips
• 1/2 walnuts

Mix flour, baking soda, & salt
Cream the sugar and butter until fluffy, add vanilla
Bear in thoroughly 1 egg yolk at a time until smooth
Pour 1/3 pkg of chips into scalded milk, stir until dissolved
Add to creamed mixture then ass remaining chips & nuts
Fold in stiffly beaten egg whites, turn into greased pan *
Bake 350 1/2 hour

Fluffy Frosting

• 5 tbsp flour
• 1 c whole milk

Med. heat: stir constantly until thick, let cool
Mix:

• 1/2 c butter
• 1/2 c shortening
• 1 c sugar
• 2 tsp vanilla

then blend both together

The first circle is the petals, the 5" circle is the center. "C" is the stem, the two fit together as shown:

B are the leaves as well as D

Enjoy (;

it's my honor to post for my blog this video.

I'm lucky I'm in love (happiness)
Because SO MUCH is pissing me off lately.
actually just 2 things
FUCKING PARENTS AND SCHOOL.
To mad to write about it
IM FUCKING DONE.

tbe ii

dates I want to go on
(wow i'm really not great)
art museum
wedding
shopping
lake shore park
madison
chicago
six flags

tbe

restaurants to visit:

Hectors 

El Fuego (already went, want to go with Gian) 

Riptide

East Garden 

Oakland Gyros (Greek) UPDATE: Best Gyros and good authentic Greek food! Giant portions

Conejitos (already went, want to go with Gian) UPDATE: Met family here w/ Gian and tried mixed meat tacos which were deeelish

Classic Slice UPDATE- fave pizza ever

Lulu UPDATE- really unique sandwiches, very worldly. ate at a giant open window which was perfecto. Very good sweet chai!!

Demarinis

Nessun Dorma

Tenutas

Honeypie

Beans and Barley

Charro  

these are very very delicious

are you relieved that they know now? 

no, i didn't care that i was lying. i didn't care they didn't know. i had told myself i'd tell them eventually. there's a contrast. i am very angry how they found out (malicious intention) but i am very happy i didn't have to be the one to tell them. i'm not going to tell the story of how my parents found out about gian, because i think i will remember it. it's a pretty entertaining story perhaps.

that makes me happy = "das macht mich glucklich"