Dear Gian, [Updated]

Here is a list of music I still want. By the way, the Talking Heads CD only gave me 3 songs and none of them are Once in a Lifetime.. so they're on this list.

talking heads

canyons of static

john the savage

all your stuff

the gwen steph sounding band

 ..tiger army?

some trip-hop!

fable & the world flat

more beatles, please

sublime

the cd you bought when lauren came over, her name might've been Emilie? 

do you have classical music on cd?

flaming lips

unkle

the cure

jeff beck

murder by death

mars volta

peyroux

boc

YAY

From The Daily Green

watermelon and cherry salad with mint
REUSE ALUMINUM FOIL :D  I know it's not our 10y ann, but let's make art (:
cheap food ...college?

So, I took the advise and I've been rehearsing my songs, but I haven't read. I know I should. I know reading is good. There are a lot of things I don't know, that I haven't read. So I should read. I'll keep rehearsing.

BUT IM JUST SO HAPPY

It's cliche, it's happened before, everyone's heard it over and over and over.

I do  a little geek out hurricane dance. I just feel so much of one thing, but also a lot of things. I hate how I sound. I hate how typical it all is.

In the middle of the night

you know those half-asleep
kisses that happen when the hours are small and the streets are
dark, quiet?


that's my favorite kind of kiss it makes my
little legs
dance and my greedy hands pull you forward and there's no way you
could be close enough to me







goodness, i'm such a softy these days.

I am nervous right now

I am very nervous, hoping this works according to plan.

movies! '~ᴗ~'

chocolat,
the science of sleep,
fight club,
the beach,
up in the air,
fear and loathing in lv,
shutter island,
The Last Picture Show,
Cinema Paradiso,
American
 History X,
Alice Doesn't Live Here Anymore,
grand isle,
Lonesome Dove,
the graduate,
Animal House,
Road Trip,
Van Wilder,
Back to School
Rock School
freeway amadeus
no direction home

I might be giving my gerbil to a sophmore named Lauren Willy

You're too smart and talented to be wasting your time on that crap when you could be doing stuff that's really cool and creating stuff or at least spending all your internet talking with friends instead of strangers and whiny messageboard geeks.  I feel like all these things make people dumber and more closed-minded.

The above is my inspiration to give away my childhood hobby, Gaiaonline, to my friend Emily S. I deleted fukung.net from my history so i don't go back. I'm going to read more and try to create something. I need to rehearse songs for the Giovanni and Emily un named duo project. I'm glad I'm purging these things from my life. I used to spend an embarrassing amount of time on the internet.

If you tell your parents you're in love, they scrutinize the other person and find their flaws. They already do that now when they haven't been informed I'm serious for Gian. If you don't tell your parents you're serious with someone, they don't let you see them as often and they judge them maybe more openly. Either way, I've always hated being in relationships as long as I live in this not understanding home.

I'm looking forward to college and I'm scared. I'm scared I will stop thinking about Gian although now that sounds crazy. I'm looking forward to college because I really want a girlfriend or a girlfriend type laady. Plus my parents won't know when Gian visits or if I have a girlfriend. They don't know I'm not straight.